Raise my hands and Pray

Dad,
I talked to her and was hoping that she could at least share me some explanation.. but she gave me really a shockin & out-of-reasonable answer, she read my last note and thought since i've made my decision then the meeting is pointless -- in a way that anythg she said would make no difference.. She didnt read (what's hidden) between the lines..

That nite before the meeting,
I prayed, "God, please let me hear simple answer.. where she could just ease my pain, our pain.." I know He listened, but He's not giving it away easily.

Dad,
Sadly i dunno her anymore.. i no longer recognise smone sitting in frnt of me today stating that she doesnt feel any necessity to gv me some words over what had happened -- over what she wrote and considered an outburst.

Yes Dad,
Simply people hv various stands for sadeeq (friend; as it has a strong stand in Arabic) - and perhaps i wasnt too good of a best friend after all.. i dont point finger at nobody coz it think it's abt time to be maturely wise and after a deep thought undergo what u're due as well as accepting the consequences.. i am now, ready.. I appreciate people for what they believe and I respect them for standing on their values. I have mine and am keeping that, too..

Dad,
Thx for the late-nite chat.. really appreciate it! Also to all those friends out there whom i've asked for inputs.. this world is such a gracing place when people really understand what it's like under someone else shoes. May 4JJ SWT bless us all, amien!

So now,
I pray, "God, may your grace and strength be upon us.. Those who stay on your way! and may i am mature enough to walk on ur blessed path.. and please slap me on the face should i did evil but kiss me gently shall i be in goodness.. for the crisp of morning to the midst of nite. Amien"


XXX