My Next Page of Readings

I was (still) lookin at the same ol'page tonite... been stunned for quite some time now, wonder when I'd turn over the page and continue with my readings...

No, I wasnt on any exam-frenzy or anything... it's just a stupidly veritable phrase ;p on a midnite before giving up a year in my life.

I suddenly remember things I've been thru this whole years and perhaps some years back as well..

I remember great new year at a new office with bunch of awesome colleagues, arent there always great new year's parties every where
I remember having someone I could turn to, tho m always so busy abt me, my work and all - but then he has decided to back down, no worries..
I remember having soulmate, whose understanding and caring is beyond words, we've been thru all in 7 years (my fave no) but some heavy rain washed it all away... and as they say people tend to forget things - perhaps it's for the best
I remember being adopted to an honorable family - becoming such lil'princess to such busy daddy ^^
I remember those latenite chat, dad.. I miz u
I remember fixing my stand in front of my parents, trying to convince them abt my goals
I remember doin tiny bitty noble things - hope thats being calculated ;)
I remember makin huge mistakes - hope for tons of forgiveness
I remember years of happy faces and times of mourn...
I remember deeply those who stay and come over instead of those who are meant to go away
I remember attending to respectable achievements and being strong to yet-to-be-called-success
I remember nights when I feel less and less sure abt my options
I remember days when I careless
I remember you... yes, you... out there!
I remember things which people say I dont know, or know less, or least xpected... I dont hv to tell

Nah,
Who would care anyway...
it's just another nights with more stars shimmering,
the sound of nature,
whispering voices towards heaven in quietly prayers,
the sound of peace,
Who would care anyway...
it's just like any other night when one wakes up over bad dream and returns to bed immediately.
it's just like that nighty nite...
only I get a lovely kiss gudnite this very nite

Tonight,
I (really) have to turn over the page.. tho m not sure whats waiting for me there
but positively it'll b no less beautiful than what I had before
would you come over - stay by my side - while I turn to the next page?