do we really care enough?

Do we really care enough of what happen? do we really want to help or simply take it as minor to regret... To what extend will we finally act on... I hope it's soon, although soon is not that good enough..

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stung

apparently the pain of being stung by electricity isnt as much as that I felt today,
I shall not regret what has happened and if it really is God's will..who am I to overrule it..

Jika boleh ku berkirim surat kepada-Nya malam ini,
"Ya Allah, aku mungkin tidak bisa meminta-Mu memutarbalikkan waktu..
tapi jika kuminta tunjukkan kami semua kepada jalan-Mu,
segera hentikan semua kekeruhan ini,
terangilah mata hati kami..
bisakah?

Tunjukkan yg benar dari yg bathil..
Jauhkan kami dari syak wasangka,
Selamatkan dari azab-Mu, ya Rabb..

Karena tidak mungkin bisa aku meminta-Mu memutarbalikkan waktu..
bolehkah kuminta pertolongan-Mu untuk meluruskan semuanya,
Ya Illahi Rabbi yg Maha Pengasih.. jangan biarkan kami ditenggelamkan
wahai Dzat yg Maha Pemaaf
jika memang ada silap kami, mohon dibukakan pintu maaf sebesar-besarnya

Semoga ridho-Mu slalu beserta kami hingga ujung napas nanti..

Ya Allah, Maha Menentukan dan Memiliki yg ada di langit dan di bumi,
jika tak mungkin Kau kabulkan pintaku,
setidaknya lapangkanlah hati kami dari amarah, dendam dan fitnah

amien."

Ranah 3 Warna

Ranah 3 Warna by Ahmad Fuadi

My rating: 4 of 5 stars



Anak-anakku...

Bila badai datang. Hadapi dengan Iman dan sabar. Laut tenang ada untuk dinikmati da disyukuri. Sebaliknya laut bada ada ubtuk ditaklukkan, bukan ditangisi. Bukankah karakter pelaut andal ditatah oleh badai yg silih berganti ketika melintas lautan tak bertepi?

Menyambung baca buku ini dari Negeri 5 Menara semakin mengukuhkan hati untuk terus BERUSAHA.. yes, I have let myself down, and yes I have come to tiredness as much as I want to give up -- but I never did, tapi karunia Tuhan mana yg bisa aq ingkari? sementara di luar sana masih banyak org yg kekurangan tp terus mencoba bertahan *dg gelegar suara Bang Togar

Alif dan buku ini mengajarkan aq nggak malu tuk mengakui, I have change course.. berani menjawab tanya seorang kawan yg menusuk kesadaranku, "Git, lo masi inget mimpi lo mo kerja di Deplu ga?"

"Ya, Fit.. aq masih ingat, sedekat kulit menyelimuti jantungku.. Mimpiku adalah bekerja di tempat di mana aq mampu berakulturasi, membantu & mempengaruhi org banyak.. Mungkin Deplu memang bukan tempatnya untukku menurut-Nya, mkg yg aq tempuh sekarang inilah di mana semua akan bermula.."

Dan aq masih (akan) terus berusaha mencari kesuksesan itu.. sembari bersabar jika terantuk batu diterjang badai...

Aq masih belum tuntas menapaki Man Jadda Wajada, skg sudah kutambahkan bekalku Man Shabara Zhafira... 

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finding a way

I was told back then that the road I'm choosing is bigger than life..

That summing up two to the equation is really making the number huge!

That it's not only abt one matter alone but also a bunch of cant deny deposition.. Where people around consider you rightiously theirs.. While you're stuck in the middle grasping

That it's hard to think on your own coz you've taken too many audiences' seats before your stage..

And it's too much

And there's no place to hide

And you wish you could jst buy some time

Yet, you're always runnin outta credits

And it's too much

And it's too much

And it's time to find a way out

NUMB

I woke up this morning feeling so xhausted..

I cried all nite hoping that God would fast forward the time to another two weeks from now where all these were settled while my loved one & I were subject of enjoyment bliss.

People say when goin thru this event you'll face loads of commotion and stress that I should just enjoy, tell me.. how would a person infiltrate such feeling when he/she is down with illness and people around him/her can't even cooperate to the very least about making everything goes well as planned -- when changes, another and again another are always coming in the way.. Tell me, I wanna know, how people say they appreciate but they themselves put their fingers on without even caring the head-to-toe effort that's been made from the very beginning.

If only they're in my shoes, I wonder what they would do.. It's just easy for everybody to say.

I woke up this morning feeling xhasuted,

I was crawling from being so very happy to quite happy then less happy until now xtreemly tired! I should perhaps never try to please everyone in the first place, coz in the end, I'm the one who ended up feeling NOT HAPPY! and it's NOT WORTH IT! I have too much to think and feel that I finally get to the word NUMB.

Cant they just understand? and for all its worth make me and my loved one HAPPY to celebrate the coming event.. coz nothing else matters - really. If it's not anymore, we might as well forget about all these... and let everyone suit themselves.



"It's two weeks in counting and I'm still dealing with changes, where I thot I'm supposed to be ALREADY relaxing and dealing with no other than prep treatment for the BIG day -- sigh"